My Profound Thoughts

*Morning Medication Rounds*

Amelia was busy with dispensing medications to one of her patients this morning. She walked to his room, with a tray with medications dispensed in a disposable plastic pot. On seeing her, he said, “Oh! you hid your smile, didn’t you?”. He didn’t see the smile, behind the visor and the mask.

Amelia had her personal protective attire for work on. So far, by God’s Grace or by fate, her workplace is not contracted with the virus. But since the threat is approaching nearer day by day, all the staff are wearing PPE’s to protect the people in their care.

She said, “ It’s just that you don’t see it, there is still a smile behind this mask.” Even though she worried about everything that’s happening outside, She still did not forget to keep her smile.

Behind the mask, there was a hidden smile, the smile that masked all her thoughts that currently blown and tossed in her mind.

She thought, “I wish I could say how much I care about you and others. These days I worry about so many things:

I worry that if I go out to buy groceries, it’s not just me, you still have a chance to get it from me.

I worry if I get it, I have to stay home as well as my other half, which can make things difficult to meet our daily life demands

I worry what if tomorrow, if I and my team get ill, how you will be cared for.

I worry, what if you get it and I blame my whole life for bringing it to you.

I not only just worry about when I’ll be seeing my family again, but also about yours.

I worry if I be able to keep you safe until your family be able to meet you again.

But still I have a smile hidden behind my mask, the smile I wear on my face, to keep your spirits high as well as everyone else’s !”

Amelia administrated the medication and went back to the medication trolley, to scribble her signature in the medication administration record. And she carried on..

~ChinchuGibu